Groggy

i've been struggling to finish a post. i've drafted a few, i completing and publishing has just been beyond me.

Halloween threw me for a loop. It always does. i love the day and look forward to it, and anticipate celebrating it. Then comes trick or treating and i remember that as all the cousins gather for the candy collecting trek, the aunts and uncles are packing strollers, rolling coolers, and purses full of beer, vodka nips, and whiskey and get smashed as we go on.
It's something that's deeply saddened me for the last few years.

i carried on, going through my days with this groggy lowness. i caught a cold, fought it for a couple weeks, now i'm muddling through bronchitis.

Messes are piling up, stress of finances is weighing me down. i keep reminding to just move forward one step, one breath, at a time.