It's been a while since i've worn this necklace. But today is an important day. We've reached 6 years since the brilliant and lovely Melissa Avrin lost her battle with an eating disorder. She was the first person i knew to become a casualty to something i held so dear. It was the first thing to really shake me up and question how close i should keep myself this disease. This beautiful woman helped me through so much in the short time that i knew her, the light that she possessed was immutable, her energy was bright and fun and infectious. With ease she could fill a room with laughter. Her presence was a delight to all who knew her. The hope she had and the dreams she clung to despite her struggles were so inspiring, the depths of her thoughts and the honesty with which she spoke of her hurts and her fears were moving, comforting, and motivating. i miss her so much. i would have loved to be around and watch what she could have done on this earth.
It's been great to watch the Someday Melissa movie reach so many people, shed light on this dark subject, and give hope where it is needed so so much.
And while i'm grateful for the gift of recovery, it is so hard to lose people along the way. i wish i, or any of us, knew the formula for what makes recovery successful. It varies so greatly, and one seemingly small slip up and have such major consequences.
Today i am wearing my strong woman necklace, to remind myself that i am a strong woman, and remain thankful to all the strong women in my life that helped me get to a place where i can finally believe that.
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